Speaking of cars , I am closer to the republicans on this bail out thing but Kusinich stayed against it as well as Nader . actually more than half of the republicans went with the big deal but I would have rather seen more hold out for a committee investigation where they could bury the entire thing . The quick fix reminded me of waiting in a hallway for the guy to come back with the promised pot . He never comes back . These last days of Bush could sink the entire world for my money . I am getting to sound like George Carlin , hoping and waiting to see it go down . I hope at least I live .... one way or the other . Carlin must have had too much vitriol working against him , in spite of his brilliance and humor .

Anyway , who is going to bail me out ? Nobody , that's who .

I have seen my business blown out of the water in a fell swoop after 2001 . The corporate clients lost me or I them . They didn't come back for years and if they did they didn't come by my office . I have been going under steady and should be underwater by now but I breath water , evidently . I am bitter , rotten bitter . The democrats let me down ,the republicans bent me over a chair , and now Wall street wants me to be sympathetic . Sorry , Charlie , I haven't had anything for too long to worry about taking care of the rich people who are losing everything . I was and am against the phony bailout package by Paulson , an unelected , appointee of the worst president in history . That this country could become an aggressor nation sickens me .

The investigations after Bush leaves office should be interesting in the scope and also the whitewash and cover up . several of the issues could well go to the Supreme Court , especially the issue of presidential privilege . Will he still be able to hide the truth after he leaves office ? My guess is that they will let him get away with it even if the Democrats get their magic number to bully congress .It's over for me ,man . It might have been over after Kent State ,maybe as far back as forty years in Chicago when the shoe was on the other foot and the Democrats lost in a close one to Nixon . Humphrey represented the status quo and was what was left over after all the murders of 68' . As Vice President , Humphrey was another LBJ , and the continuation of more questions . The alternative world that ensued with Nixon was even worse in the end .

I did vote for Obama but he was never a resolution for me while McCain would have been a great loss . Obama is pushing the bailout like a good boy . I am not with him on this point . I don't believe they have regulated the 700 billion in the first place . Paulson won't even say who has gotten money so far much less where the rest is headed . This was a really bad idea . Hey , I am only the emotionally wounded and there are a lot of other people who are wounded in love , hate , war , disease , and Wall street , their savings , their retirements . I don't have to worry about my retirement , it never was . I am only a poet who cries too much . My old friend , Lenny saw my tears over the years and said , "Never be ashamed of being human ." Now he is gone and I am a freak . I have to watch out , especially in these holidays with all the family sales attacking me to buy or adopt a family and spend at least a few hundred dollars on things that are useless . Bah Humbug .... haha , Sorry , I am just getting into it .... The Holiday spirit .

It goes on ....

Yes , there was a book a few years back called "On A Clear Day You Can See General Motors" . It was written after the government generally bailed out Chrysler Motors . The day has come . I have little sympathy for that industry as I realize the greed of the takers who have raked in incredible amounts of bonuses as CEOs on the back of a public that is determined to buy SUVs . In this area there are a lot of vehicles that are ready for great snowfall when we only get a few days a year of actual big snow problems . Those cars and trucks were sold without the blink of an eye by the manufacturers . Perhaps the owners are incredibly "Macho" or maybe it is that they are just "Pussies" , cowards afraid of weather changes . I don't know anymore . All I know is that nobody is "Bailing me out " but my mother but my mother does have to think of herself and her husband , after all. This comes back to "Nobody is bailing me out!"

I can't be the only one on this very thin ice but I am going to be sixty four this year and I can't imagine a scenario of retiring from a job I don't have . Somehow I have made ends meet yet I continue to go under every month . I refinanced a loan but it is getting harder to move money , if not impossible . The idea of the seven hundred billion dollar bonus to Wall Street seemed to be to open up the banks and their lending to businesses , small businesses like me . That just has not occurred . So where is the money ? I understand that Paulson can't tell congress where the money is and has changed plans but has kept the money . Where exactly is the money ?

There were no regulations put on the money or on Paulson or on our "Lame Duck Administration" . The money should never have been made available to them at all . The banks will continue to screw us if we allow them . It is a "Drug Deal" gone wrong and you don't get your money back from the drug deal . How can this congress continue to lie and cheat it's way to the end of 2008 ? Easy , the same way it lied and cheated it's way to the end of 2007 .

I notice that Obama is already backing away from the sixteen month withdrawal of troupes . The Democrats are the same as we left them in 1968 , or perhaps I should mention 1996 when Clinton lost the congress , not that he ever had the control that George W. Bush was able to exert with his Republican gang . The fact is that the changing guard well might have control of congress but . personally , I don't trust them any more than the Republicans . A perfect example is the current "Bailout" package which continues with no limits or regulation .

I will face some hard decisions in January myself . I am not alone and a lot have fallen already to this insanity . I can only see things from my head and I don't care about General Motors . I would like to have a place to sleep in February . This season is falling further from short than any season in the past that I can remember as an adult . The early months of the year are always bleak for me and I count on December's success to get me through the winter . December is here and there is no light at the end of the tunnel for me this year . Digging a deeper ditch will be an option if I can find a shovel to pile on more money to what I already owe in debt . The Bailout and "Trickle Down" theory hasn't worked for me . Why not try a Trickle Up idea and give me and people like me actual funds like those being given to Wall street in an abstract , unregulated , unanswerable way .